Inside my thoughts

Today is Monday, and that means get ready for a busy school week. I went to check blackboard (class website) and I was horrified when I saw that my 17 classmates posted, and they did extensively.  I guess they forgot that we have to read and answer every single post tonight. They all look the same.  They are talking using the IT and financial lingo that I hate, and that my brain refuses to understand. I could feel those words floating around my head like a halo. They might as well had posted in French...or did they?  I think that financial and technology experts forget the process of communication, or perhaps they care more about looking smart than having the message understood.  How can I push my brain to produce enough BS to answer everybody by tonight? I guess I have to try.


Today, I was thinking about the hazards of being a single mom trying to finish grad school. They are many, including the high levels of stress and pressure that causes a chronic allostatic overload. Over time this can cause damage to the arteries which precludes heart disease and the complications that come with it. The allostatic overload also increases the readings for blood pressure. This will add to the risk that I already have based on my genetic composition and family history. I am doomed!

Those are risks but what is a fact is that when you are a single mom attending grad school,  someone will always be angry at you... I will give a few examples...today I didn't cook, so my daughter will be upset, but if I spent the time cooking, and didn't post my professor will be angry and I will be angry at myself when he mentions my lack of discipline in open forum. My son was angry at me over the weekend because I didn't get to rent the drum he needed before the store closed until Tuesday. Its like a chain of events that never ends.... When I earn this degree I will forget about that, but in the mean time let me angry at my classmates for forcing me to read over 40 pages of documents talking about meaningful use, electronic medical records, CMS incentives, Health Information Technology for Economic and Clinical Health Act,  and the American Recovery and Reinvestment Act.