I am a doctorate student, and a mother of 4 children. Three are living with me and one is away in college. Since I am a single mother I work a full time job and 2 part-time jobs. This semester I registered for two courses in my program. If that is a lethal move, is yet to be seen. Trying to adjust to my class load has been challenging. My weekend was packed with school work. Today I came from work at 6:30pm and after dinner I told the kids "mom is going to rest for an hour". My children looked at me like I said "I am going to Disney World without you". That was the look of death. My seventeen year old even implied that I rest too much. WHAT????? Then the look of death came from me. What's wrong with teenagers, do they really believe than some alien come in at night and does their laundry, clean our toilets, wash the floors, do groceries, etc, etc. I felt so unappreciated, but to be truthful its not the first time. Then my mother-who also lives me -complained that I didn't get snow off the deck....WHAT? I am wondering what do they I do for those 8 hrs that I am away? Do they believe I go to a spa? I just needed solitude. I felt like putting everyone outside and closing the door behind me.
Soon after that I found a meditation card that one of my friends has shared with me some time ago, and I'll share it with you since it helped me regain balance:
LOVE MEDITATION
May I be peaceful, happy,
and light in body and spirit.
May I be safe and free from injury.
May I be free from anger,
fear, and anxiety.
May I learn to look at
myself with the eyes of
understanding and love.
May I be able to live
fresh, solid, and free.
May I be free from
attachment and aversion,
but not be indifferent.
thich nhat hahn
For this mom everyday is a challenge, but I will not have it any other way. My kids are the best part of me. I am looking forward to do it again tomorrow.
